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Ever since I started to gain the weight, I discovered how difficult it is for me to manage my body. Pieces of me get in the way now.

 I want to scratch my back and the arms do not reach the spot, forcing me to start searching for an implement to relieve the itch. Doorways, handsaws for the back while the feet produced a whole new set of difficulties. My boobs prevent my upper arms from crossing over each other. It is a continual dilemma negotiating the general movement of the body.

The clothing of the body is another crisis waiting for a creative solution. As I am gradually growing out of my existing clothes the idea of replacing them with bigger sizes becomes almost angst ridden. The replacement of the clothes is all the more difficult because of limited finances and the financial situation can not be addressed as the increasing size of the body makes finding jobs a decidely negative experience.

Part of me wants to know if others are experiencing similar difficulties. How do I turn this increasing weight gain around and start to reduce?

The doctors say exercise and diet. Exercise means now PAIN and diet becomes a guilt ridden journey into self hatred everytime I eat any food of any type.

I am torn between giving up and a desire to change this situation but feel powerless to do either. Well that is my whinge for today. Thank you for listening. I am interested in others stories about living with the fat. Maybe someone will have a story that will help me to change or to accept this experience.

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